Wednesday 30 July 2008

chikkuu...chaaakkk...

chikkuu...chaaakkk...
we could see you...
especially your long legs hehehe...
kicking and leaping...
hope to see you soon in four weeks time....

Friday 11 July 2008

emotional

wohoo...could not believe that i am so emotional this time round (me being pregnant). i could not remember being this emo when i was pregnant with ryan or maybe i was just too sick (quite a few time in and out of the hospital) to notice about it o^_^o. i think i do need to wear a sticker saying "handle with care" or "enter at your own risk" right across my forehead hahaha... poor b and my lil sis for needing to put up with me. i feel awful for them owh..poor me..hehehe... anyway, me and b are feeling excited of next week scan.

**ya Allah, bless us all**

Wednesday 2 July 2008

"you"

mommy and daddy could see you sayang.. tee hee...
you were jumping up and down...
daddy said he can see you kicking...
mommy could see you moving your hand...
maybe u do not like it when the doctor poking mommy's tummy,
just to get a good view of you...
or maybe you are equally excited seeing us o^_^o
anyhow, we are blessed.

Friday 27 June 2008

The Beats

I can hear it...
B can hear it too...
She definitely can hear it...
Vwooww..vwooww...vooww....
Steady and fast beating...
We want to hear it some more...
We hope to see you soon...

Monday 16 June 2008

Cost of Living in Malaysia

I received this forwarded email from a friend of mine.
Not sure how far the truth of the story, but here goes...

Can A Family Man With Salary RM3,000 Survive In Malaysia ...!

Let's do some simple calculations here.

In Malaysia , the average family income is RM3,000 /month
(where father works, mother doesn't).

I understand there are many families whose
monthly income does not reach RM3,000,
but, to make things simple,
let's take RM3,000 as the figure. Ok lah, right?

Okay, let's start rolling with a family which has
Papa, Mama, 1 daughter and 1 son. Ngam-ngam ....



Calculation starts...

Electricity and water bill: RM100
(No air-con, No home theatre, No water heater ... ok?)

Phone bill ( Telekom): RM100
(Internet streamxy RM68 + land line RM25 = RM93, round-up to RM100 la)

Meals for a happy family: RM775
(3 meals on RM25/day 4 persons. Forget about makan in restaurant ya)

Papa makan / teh-tarik during working hrs: RM155
(RM5/day, RM5 ... can eat what?)

Car repayment: RM400
(A proton saga aeroback, 7 yrs repayment)

Petrol (living in city, traffic-jam) :RM300
(go to work, bring son to school, only can afford one car running. NO YET CONSIDER PETROL INCREASE 40.8%)

Insurance: RM650
(Kids, wife and self. Forget about insurance la..no money to pay, lets drop it)

House repayment: RM750
(low cost housing repayment for 30 yrs, retired still have to work to pay!)

Tuition: RM80
(got that cheap meh? i don't think so)

Older children pocket money @ school: RM20
(RM1/day, eat bread?)

School fees: RM30
(enough ah?)

School books and etc: RM100
(always got extra to pay in school)

Younger children milk powder: RM50
(cannot have the DHA, BHA, PHA one, expensive)

Miscellaneous: RM100
(shampoo, rice, sauce, toilet paper, saman, etc)

Oh wait!!! I have to stop here, so...
No Astro,
no movie @ cinema,
no DVD,
no CD,
no toys
no computer,
no KFC, no McDonald,
no insurance
no jalan-jalan makan angin (vacation)
no chit chat on phone with grandparents, and etc...
nothing breaks down for repair
Let's use a calculator to total up... WALAO EH! Sh*t! RM2,960 already...

EPF belum potong, income tax lagi........ oledi RM2,960!!!



How to survive lah tuan-tuan dan puan-puan sekalian ???
Our Deputy Prime Minister asked us to change lifestyle?
How to change? Don't eat? Don't work? Don't send children to school and study?
Besides that, I believe in Malaysia population, there are millions of rakyat Malaysia which still don't earn RM3,000/month!!! What is this? Inilah Malaysia Boleh... Sorry... it should be Malaysians Boleh, because we're still alive and kicking!!

Tuesday 5 February 2008

Ryan Aziz

It's been a week since we lost our baby - Ryan Aziz.
Listening to song by Dewa "Hadapi Dengan Senyuman"
makes me cry and smile at the same time. The lyrics
are so meaningful and truthful. May Allah be merciful
and give us strength through this difficult time, insyaAllah.


Artist: DEWA
Song: HADAPI DENGAN SENYUMAN
Album: LASKAR CINTA (2004)
Source: lyricsandsongs

Hadapi dengan senyuman
Semua yang terjadi
Biar terjadi….
Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
Semua... kan baik baik saja

Bila ketetapan tuhan
Sudah ditetapkan
Tetaplah sudah….
Tak ada yang bisa merubah
Dan takkan bisa berubah

Reff
Relakanlah saja ini
Bahwa semua yang terbaik
Terbaik untuk kita semua
Menyerahlah untuk menang

Friday 1 February 2008

Burial

We woke up early this morning. B went to pick up Ryan Aziz and the placenta at the hospital and ensure all the documentation needed to bring him home for burial is settled. I couldn't accompany B as my feet are swollen up. Standing and walking around the hospital with my "elephant feet" don't seems fair,B told me. So, I waited patiently for their arrival and recite my zikir and doa. Mean while, my youngest sister prepared some dishes in the kitchen for our guests.

After a while, I called and asked B whether everything was ok. B said everything went well though he needed to wait a little longer for a nurse to release Ryan. I asked B, where did they put Ryan? B slowly told me, in a tupperware. My heart just crushed when I heard that and couldn't possibly utter another question. So the only thing that I could said to B was drive safely.

Shortly after B arrived home, ustaz and his family turned up. They help us to "mandikan, kafankan and sembahyangkan" our little Ryan Aziz. B and I are forever grateful for their help and kindness. When we were about to go to the Haycombe Cemetery, ustaz's wife told me that we have a beautiful boy. I just smiled because I know Ryan had both of our great features..perasankan.

Waiting at the cemetery were our two close friends. They couldn't join the "solat jenazah" so we told them to wait for us at the cemetery instead. While B drove our car, I "kendong" my baby on my right hand and I could just feel his tiny weight. My sister was holding a jug of floral water. While we waited outside, B showed the documentation to Tracy (a Christian priestess) as she needed proof that Ryan and the documentation came together.

Tracy escorted us, to the Muslim graveyard. Ustaz "kepal2kan" tanah, helped by B and our two friends. This was done to help "mengiringkan" our Ryan to faced kiblat in his "liang lahad." Ustaz told my husband to buried our own son as he said it'll be more afdal. B, did as told and little by little our Ryan covered by soil. It's hard for me to watch my own son being buried but it was harder for B because he's burying our son. Anyway, what needs to be done need to be settled. We finished off by reciting doas and showering our son grave with floral water.

Ryan Aziz..Mummy and Daddy love you so much. May we meet again in Jannah.

Al-fatihah.